Am I going through a pre-mid life crisis? Could it be that the inner tugs between what I want for myself and what I think I want for my family are leading to this mini- pre-mid life crisis?
This stage I've entered in my life is altogether daunting and exciting. At 33, I have my family, my real estate career is thriving, and I'm where I want to be...but I'm wanting more. How can I be wanting more in this culture of cutting back, reducing, eliminating waste, and consuming less? But I do.
What is it I could possibly want? I want a place for my growing children to grow up in a neighborhood (but I have a beautiful rural, private country setting right now...isn't that what I've always dreamt for, with my horses in the back yard and a place to ride?) I'd like to see them with friends and a safe place to bike.
What else do I want? High speed internet would be nice. Is it ever going to come to my street? How did I managed to dive into social media as I have when I can't even get high speed internet? (But didn't I want to be here in the country, without neighbors looking over into my yard...was that the trade off?)
I've gotten lazy about driving back and forth to Keene from home. So my children are growing and they're involved in afternoon activities now. I love for them to be involved, but sometimes this means driving back and forth from home 2-3 times a day. Wouldn't it be so nice to....wait a minute, I've heard my seller prospects talk about making decisions like this on several occassions lately.
We need to be told to either:
"Be Happy With What You've Got "
"Don't Fear The Losses and Look Forward to the Gains"
Until I can choose one or the other, I'll be wondering if this "moving bug" will ever leave me alone and which decision (to stay or to move) will I be most satisfied with, in other words, least regretful of making?